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When I say... "I am a Christian"

2009-04-11T04:55:00.000-07:00

Lydia tagged me in her notes in FB and true enough it is one of the issues I've been struggling, which is even though I'm a Christian, I'm not perfect, I still need God in every way. It is really comforting when and after reading it. Hope it'll do the same to you too. Enjoy.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Written by Maya Angelou

Groanings of the Spirit

2009-03-24T19:16:00.000-07:00

Romans 8:26-28 says,

"And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness.
For example, we don't know what God wants us to pray for.
But the Holy Spirit prays for us
with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.
And the Father who know all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying,
for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God's own will.
And we know that God causes everything to work together
for the good of those who love God
and are called according to his purpose for them."

At times when troubles strike us till the point we don't even know how to face or even how to present it unto God, here it says that the Spirit interceeds for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.

So take heed for those who feel helpless and clueless in times of difficulty for there is always help that is given unto us that we sometimes don't even realize. Therefore, trust the Lord always for God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

Life's Principals

2009-02-18T20:26:00.000-08:00

1 Timothy 6:11-16

But you, Timothy, are a man of God;
so run from all these evil things.
Pursue righteousness and a godly life, along with faith, love, perseverance, and gentleness.

Fight the good fight for the true faith.
Hold tightly to the eternal life to which God has called you,
which you have confessed so well before many witnesses.

And I charge you before God, who give life to all,
and before Christ Jesus,
who gave a good testimony before Pontius Pilate,

that you obey this command without wavering.
Then no one can find fault with you
from now until our Lord Jesus Christ comes again.

For at just the right time Christ will be revealed from heaven by the blessed and only almighty God,
the King of all kings and the Lord of all lords.

He alone can never die,
and he lives in light so brilliant
that no human can approach him.
No human eye has ever seen him, nor ever will.
All honour and power to him forever.
Amen!

Came across these verses during my QT last night. I've read these verses many times but somehow it seemed to give me a big impact last night. These verses will be the principals that I build my life on. Persevere through everything life throws at me, all for the sake of God's glory and honour.

May these verses speak to you as they did to me.

True Love

2009-02-13T20:09:00.000-08:00

Elephant Love Medley

All you need is love.
A girl has got to eat.

All you need is love.
Or she'll end up on the streets.

All you need is love.
Love is just a game.

I was made for loving you baby, you were made for loving me.
The only way of loving me baby, is to pay a lovely fee

Just one night, gimme, just one night.
There's no way, cause you can't pay.

In the name of love, one night in the name of love.
You crazy fool, I won't give in to you.

Don't leave me this way, I can't survive, without your sweet love.
Oh baby, don't leave me this way.
You'd think that people would have had enough of silly love songs.

I look around me and I see, it isn't so, oh no.
Some people want to fill the world with silly love songs.

Well what's wrong with that, I'd like to know? Cause here I go again!

Love lifts us up where we belong, where eagles fly, on a mountain high.
Love makes us act like we are fools, throw our lives away for one happy day.

We could be heroes, just for one day.
You, you will be mean.

No I won't!
And I, I--I'll drink all the time.

We should be lovers.
We can't do that.

We should be lovers, and that's a fact.
Though nothing, will keep us together.

We could steal time...
Just for one day.

We could be heroes, for ever and ever.
We could be heroes, for ever and ever. We could be heroes...

Just because I will always love you.
I can't help loving you.

How wonderful life is,
when you're in my world.

Just a random song that I picked, not because of the lyrics but it's just the song itself that i simply like. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TaqYgWc8-vs

Much love and joy surrounds this day but in reality, is it true? Today will be like a dream to many and tomorrow, everything will fall back into reality. Today will be a day to remember our loved ones, whether they are still with us or not. Cherish the times with your loved ones today, with family, life partners or simply with fellow friends.

In all the love you give and receive today, let us not forget the one true love in our heart, God the Father. It is written in the famous verse John 3:16 that 'For God so love the world that He gave His only Son. That whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' As we channel our love to the people around us, remember, there is a greater love that surrounds us, God's love.

May you continue to love God always as He has loved you all the days of your life.

Peter vs. Judas

2009-02-03T18:17:00.000-08:00

At the most recent Sunday, I suddenly had a little insight from God on what I last posted.

Just a little info, I attend Whispering Hope (preaching point of Emmanuel Methodist Church) every Sunday. We're currently doing a study on the book of Mark.

So here's where I got the little 'insight'. In Mark 3, Jesus appointed His 12 disciples, the order begins with Simon (Peter) and ending with Judas Iscariot. Uncle Sam shared with us that this 2disciples of Jesus had 1 thing in common. They both betrayed Jesus. Peter denied Jesus 3 times while Judas 'sold' and plotted Jesus' death with the pharisees. I'm not comparing the severeness of the 2 different betrayal but instead what did Peter and Simon did after they realize they betrayed Jesus, the innocent man.

After Peter had realized that he denied Jesus 3 times when the cockerel crowed, he was shocked that what Jesus prophesied that Peter thought would never happen took place when Peter denied Jesus 3 times when the roosted crowed for the second time. Peter broke down and wept in grief because he knew he had betrayed or denied the Son of God. The bible did not speak much on what Peter did after he realized his wrong doings but I assume he would have prayed to God and ask for forgiveness. Later, before Jesus' went back to be with the Father, He asked Peter, "Do you love me?", not once but 3 times. For all the 3 times Peter answered, "You know I love You."

In Judas' case, he suddenly came to his senses that he had betrayed an innocent man. Jesus was not only an innocent man, but Jesus was Judas' teacher, the person Judas vowed to follow and obey. When Judas had realized, he ran to the pharisees to return the 30 pieces of silver for which was given to him for handing Jesus over to the pharisees. The pharisees ignored and told Judas it was all too late. Judas lost his way and went on to hang himself.

The difference between Peter and Judas that I want to share is that Peter turn to God when he knew he was wrong while Judas turn to man when he knew he was wrong. What would have happened if Judas turn to God to ask for forgiveness instead of running back to the pharisees? On the other hand, Peter repented and went on to become a great disciple of God.

Relating back to my previous post, we have fallen short of God's glory many times in our lives. But it is shown here through the example of Peter and Judas that if we repent and turn to God, He will not only accept us with open arms but God will also use us or even bless us far greater than what we ask or deserve.

Peter: a fisherman - Jesus' follower - betrayed Jesus - realize and repented - a great servant of God.
We: born sinners - saved as we accept Jesus as our personal Lord and Saviour - betray Jesus by following the ways of the world - realize and repented - a great servant of God.

Can the plot as written above be true? I believe it is, if we realize and repent.

Show us Your way Father. We come before You with humility and repentance. Hear our cry and accept us once again Father, as we repent and turn back to You.

so near yet so far...

2009-01-16T07:25:00.000-08:00

God is always near us and with us. But at times, we feel like He's so far, beyond where our arms could reach. Indeed, it is clearly stated in the Bible that men have fallen short of the glory of God. Therefore, I believe it is during these times when we feel that God is miles away from us. Being humans, we will ask questions like where is God when we need Him, why God doesn't answer me, why God allow such heartaches to happen in my life, and so on.

Is it for us to blame God for not showing us the light? Or is it for us to reflect on ourselves?

We have fallen short of God's glory. Darkness has no place in the awesomeness of God. If we want to be in God's presence, if we want to feel God's hand in our lives, we ought to look at ourselves. How has our life been. Is it pleasing to God or is it just pleasing our earthly desires?

We humans are selfish. We want God when we're in deep trouble and we push God aside when things are going the way we like it. We are being unfair to God. If it's because of this reason that God has shun His face from us, do we have the right to question what God is doing.

This agenda has been mingling around in my mind for a long long time. When are we going to live a life that is holy and righteous, that is completely pleasing to God. Is it even possible for us to achieve such a thing in this life on earth with our sinful nature?

God... Have mercy on me and all your children Lord for we have fallen short of Your standards. Teach us Father to live a life that is faultless before You. We yearn to come to You one day as a pure and holy sacrifice, spotless and acceptable to you.

Teach us O Father, how to be the children of God...

Hanging On...

2009-01-10T21:14:00.000-08:00

There was a boy, background unknown. He saw Jesus, standing at a short distance away from him. He ran towards Jesus, embracing Jesus' legs for Jesus is so big. He then looks upon Jesus' face with a smile. Jesus in return look down at him, returning the smile by stretching out His hand and stroke the boy's hair. Immediately, blessings flow into the boy, from head to toe, he was covered in Jesus' blessings.
Then Jesus said, " Hang on to me tightly. Hang on to me in faith. For as long as you are a part of me, I will never let you go. My power is your power. Stay with me and my blessings will always fill you."
Instantly, the boy fell to his knees and worship Jesus, thanking Jesus for this great promise that has been given to him.

This was what I saw, not once but twice in three days. It has given me faith to continue to seek God and like the boy, hang on to Jesus.

I hope this will give you great encouragement like how it did to me.

God bless all of you!

Finally, I'm back!

2009-01-03T01:24:00.000-08:00

A very big apology to those who opened my blog for the past 9 months and discover nothing new.

Guess I shall revive this blog again in this new year. Many things had happened for the past 9 months. It'll be too much if I were to write it all down. So I'll just continue writing from this moment onwards.

In less than 2 days time, I shall be returning to my university, Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (Malaysia National University). Sounds like some great place but honestly, nothing that great here.
Therefore, I'm not really looking back to return and continue my studies. Anyhow I would like to thank God for giving me a place to study and He has also seen me through my first semester.
Didn't end it in flying colours but I'm more than grateful to finish it with a moderate score.

That would be about my studies. As for my spiritual life, it has been up and down but i guess it's a normal thing. In the end, God still comes out first in my life He has continue to assure me that His grace is sufficient for me. God has placed me in a very warm and welcoming Christian Fellowship in uni called PERKEB, Persaudaraan Kristius. Met and know many great friends there too. Simply a great bunch of people that helps me to build on my relationship with God as well as simply being a friend in time of need.

Well, think that'll be all this time as this just a random post and also to inform all of you that I'm alive and that I'll be back blogging=)

God Wills It

2008-03-08T07:17:00.000-08:00

News of the latest elections results are being announced as I'm typing. The opposition no doubt is growing stronger. My own state (Kedah) has fallen into the hands of the opposition. No matter what has happened, God will still be with us till the very end. Be it joy or sadness, all glory to God as we know He is always faithful to us from the day He created us. At the end of the day, we have to accept whatever is place before us. Good or bad, God wills it..

Meaningful SMS

2008-01-15T04:59:00.000-08:00

Though I'm His sheep, I'm still prone to stray;
So Jesus in love sends afflictions my way;
The lessons I've learned in this school of deep pain;
Have thought me to follow my Lord once again.

This SMS was sent to me last year by a dear friend. Although it's something familiar, it's just very comforting to get a SMS like that once in awhile. So I hope you guys will be comforted while reading this.

The new year has begun. The feeling of school re-opening to me longer exist. I wish all those who have went back to school will stay strong and persevere through another year. Seek the Lord's strength and peace. It will be sufficient to carry you through the year well, according to His plans for you. I'll end this entry with a verse from the Bible.

We wait in hope for the Lord;
He is our help and our shield;
In Him our hearts rejoice;
For we trust in His holy name;
May Your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord;
Even as we put our hope in You.
- Psalm 33:20-22 -

True Meaning of Christmas

2007-12-17T07:56:00.000-08:00

'And behold, an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were greatly afraid. The the angel said to them,"Do not be afraid, for behold, I bring you good tidings of great joy which will be to all people. For there is born to you this day in the city of David a Saviour, who is Christ the Lord. And this will be a sign to you : You will find a Babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying in a manger." And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host praising God and saying,"Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, goodwill toward men!" - Luke 2:9-14 -

If I were to sum up the true meaning of Christmas in one word, it will be Emmanuel, which means God with us.

For all those who are celebrating Christmas, I pray that the true meaning of Christmas will be in your heart not only on this special day, but for the rest of your life. May the joy and peace that the birth of Jesus' Christ brings, rest on you and your household.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!

2007-12-12T07:14:00.000-08:00

Pleasant things don't always come the way you expected. As you thought a breeze of wind is coming, there comes the tornado. As you thought rain will finally drop, there will be too much till flood happens. As you try to taste honey, thousands of bees will attack you from the back.

Remember folks.. A dog may bite you even you just fed it with a piece of meat a minute ago. Blessings might not follow even when you do good to others.

We need Your intervention Father in heaven. Only You can stop this house of Yours from crumbling down. Please Father, come.....

'The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.' - Psalm 34:18 -

It is OVER!!

2007-12-04T07:43:00.000-08:00

Sijil Peperiksaan Tinggi Malaysia aka. STPM is oooooovvvveeeerrr!!!!!!!

After 1 and a half years of studying form6, the exam finishes in just TWO stinking weeks. It took just 8 papers which adds up to 22 hours to get everything over. I still feel it's a bad way to examine students. Sorry mr. Hishamuddin, it really sucks.

But so far 31 hours after the end of my exam, everything seems to be going really fine. I had a steamboat party with my friends that night itself. Then today, I receive a call from aunty Khoo (my piano teacher) and she brought me good news. She offered me a 2 and a half day job that lets me earn RM200. I'm like WOW!!! The job is piano exam invigilator. All I need to do is send people in the exam room after confirming their details and call people up if they didn't turn up on the expected time. Trinity London is paying RM200 for that job. And of course, I quickly said yes. Hahaha...

Tomorrow i'll be off to YLDP camp in Fraser's Hill. Got to start the journey at 6 in the morning. What to do, i'm living in the north. I'm not entirely excited about the camp but I'll go with an open heart, allowing God to work His magic there.

Well then, gotta jump into bed now and get some deserved rest. Till next time...

Together

2007-12-04T07:37:00.000-08:00

When I was at the brink of falling into the deepest pit ever, a good friend of mine wrote this to me.

'Lord... Help me to remember that nothing is going to happen to me today that You and I TOGETHER can't handle.'

Remember.. When you surrender everything to God, there is nothing that can come between you and Him.

Happy Deepavali

2007-11-06T06:11:00.000-08:00

Happy Deepavali to all my Hindu friends. Have a great time!!

Sorry again for this very short entry. I'm afraid that is all the time I have.

Till next time..

Pre-STPM journey

2007-10-08T08:20:00.000-07:00

Study, study and study.. That's about what I have to do for the next 50 days or so. Life becomes such a routine with STPM around the corner. Can't do this or that.. When friends come back for their semester break, can't really hang out much with them. Life is just so dull right now. But at least I'm glad that I'm still able to attend church and MYF. Those are the time where I can take a break from the world of studying and enjoy myself.

Yesterday was a sad day because my pregnant swordtail fish died. I was expecting about 100 baby fish but somehow it just died. I can't find any reason for its death. And today, her partner died as well. I wonder, do fish have emotions like us humans. After the female died, the male became less active and often stayed at one place. I thought something might be wrong with the water so I changed it but it didn't help. I'm gonna get some new ones cause I tak puas hati they just died like that.

I gotta sign off now and get back to my studying. To all who are reading my entries, please pray for me that I may do well in my STPM. I really appreciate if you guys pray for me. I guess the next entry will be after my STPM which ends on the 3rd of December.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my friends!!!

50th Independence

2007-08-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

Hi people.. I guess it is almost 2 months since I last posted an entry. I would say STPM and other stuff has been taking up much of my time. Before I continue saying anything else, Happy 50th Independence Day Malaysia.

Well, my STPM trials is coming up in 5 days. Ya, just 5 short days left and yet I haven't finish studying half of what I'm suppose to accomplish. Nothing or no one is to blame because it is me who is lazy to get things moving. Not mentioning the amount of tv I'm watching. I've decided not to put high hopes for this trials but rather concentrate on the real STPM.

Today in Malaysia, everyone is celebrating our 50th Independence Day or suppose to be celebrating la. As for myself, nothing much of celebration has been done today or during eve of this event. But I'm glad that tonight in my Methodist Youth Fellowship (MYF), we're gonna have some celebration in a small scale. Playing game which is indirectly connected to our Independence Day which we call 'catch the flag' game whereby we have 2 forts with a flag each. The purpose is to take over your opponent's fort by getting hold of their flag. We'll also be having water balloons to throw at each other so I guess it would be some fun. A short devotion will be shared based on the significance of the year of Jubilee in the bible. Then, we will be singing some patriotic songs prepared by our president. And of course, spending some time to pray for our nation as an MYF.

That will be all from me this time for I manage to find a little time to post this entry and to let you guys know that I'm still alive. heh.. Everything is fine for now but will be better when STPM is over! Adios...

Illustrations

2007-07-10T02:11:00.000-07:00

One day, a man had a conversation with God.

Man : God, I have one question to ask You.
God : Shoot it.
Man : May I know which side are You on? My side or my enemies' side?
God : Why do you need to ask questions like these? Isn't it easier if you just come to My side? Then you won't need to worry which side I'm on.
Man : Come to Your side?
God : Yea. Invite Me and I will come. I will surely come.

Although we might be Christians for many many years, along our journey we might feel a little dry, as if God was far away. You tend to feel Your walk with God is stagnant, a routine. Why don't we just invite God again? I have personally felt the dry and stagnant walk with the Lord. God is always there for us and all we need to do is ask. Sometimes we concentrate so much on praying for others till we forget to pray for ourselves. A balance will be good. We may feel like we are walking through a desert but God will provide an oasis to refresh us.

Remember, God is the landlord of our heart and we are the tenant. If we don't invite the landlord(God) in, He will still be standing outside, waiting.

Global Prayer Day

2007-05-27T07:56:00.000-07:00

Mid-year exam is finally over and holiday has arrive. At last I can have some space to breathe before preparing for my trial exams again. Sigh... This is what you get if you study form 6.

Anyway, I want to take this chance to share with you guys a bible verse as today is also the global prayer day. I really like this verse and the power it offers.

' In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will.'
Romans 8:26-27

Remember this verse when you have difficulties when praying. It has helped me and I know it will do for you. God bless!

The Year of Jubilee

2007-05-13T07:44:00.000-07:00

Revival starts with repentance and ends with God's assurance.

Although it is not our National Day today, I want to urge everyone out there to pray for our own nation, Malaysia.

It is the year of jubilee for Malaysia so I believe God will allow something special to take place. All we need is P.U.S.H. (Pray Till Something Happens). Perseverance in prayer is indeed very important.

Start praying for Malaysia and wait upon the manifestation of the Lord's power.

The Greatest Miracle

2007-04-05T09:25:00.000-07:00

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." - John 3:16

As Jesus was being crucified on the cross, there are so many things that God could do to get Jesus down from the cross. But why didn't He? Was God not able to perform any miracle for that few hours? Actually, God did the greatest miracle by not doing any miracle at all. God could have taken Jesus down with a snap of his finger or maybe kill all the Roman soldiers before they could nail Jesus on the cross.

The Christian faith will be totally different if God had done all those miracles. The main reason God allowed His beloved son to be nailed on the cross is because He love each and everyone of us. Through Jesus' death on the cross, not only our sins are forgiven, the bridge between us and God has also been restored.

As for Jesus, He was willing to take all the burdens upon His shoulder so that we can be united with God. Jesus showed nothing less than 100% of His love to us by dying for us on the cross. He endured all the cruel lashes of whipping and humiliation just so that we need not pay for the penalty of our sins which is eternal death. I would say, there is no other sacrifice like this.

Thank you Jesus for all that You've accomplished on the cross for me.

Great cookies for all!!

2007-03-29T20:43:00.000-07:00

Hi people.. This is suppose to be the Famous Amos recipe. I've tried it and it taste great. Well, you might want to half the recipe. Following exactly what is written below can make 'tons' of cookies. If you are a chocolate lover, don't think anymore. Just try them. You will love them. Have fun!!

2 cups butter
4 cups flour
2 tsp. baking soda
2 cups granulated sugar
2 cups brown sugar
5 cups blended oatmeal (measure oatmeal & blend in blender to a fine powder
24 oz. chocolate chips
1 tsp. salt
18 oz. Cadbury bar (grated)
4 eggs
2 tsp. baking powder
3 cups chopped nuts (your choice)
2 tsp. vanilla

Cream the butter and both sugars.
Add eggs and vanilla; mix together with flour, oatmeal, salt, baking powder, and soda.
Add chocolate chips, Cadbury bar and nuts.
Roll into balls and place two inches apart on a cookie sheet.
Bake for 10 minutes at 375 degrees.
Makes 122 cookies..

Why or What?

2007-03-22T06:14:00.000-07:00

"Even in laughter the heart may ache, and joy may end in grief." - Proverb 14:13

What an irony.. That verse from the bible is definitely true and I believe many of you will agree. Pondering upon that verse, I looked back at my own life and how true, it applies to me. Good news followed by bad news. Even good deeds might end up with horrible return. All those doesn't sound nice to any human ear but that's just how God works in the lives of certain people.

God is a sovereign God whereby He is in control over everything, good or bad. When the good happens to us, we might give thanks to Him but often He's not the first we say thanks. Then when bad things happen, we ask God why this why that.. Maybe asking God why isn't the correct question.

Suppose that God showed us the reasons why He allowed the bad things to happen, would it have satisfied us? Probably not. A man by the name of Cecil Murphey gave this example. After he was married, he kept asking his wife "Why do you fry eggs that way?", "Why do you put garlic in the salad?", etc... One day, as he was asking his wife questions like these, his wife turn off the stove and sat next to him. She asked him, "When you ask me why, I feel like you're really saying I shouldn't do it that way. Is that what you're doing?" Cecil was shocked by the question from his wife. He couldn't deny that what his wife said was true. All these while the only cooking he has tasted is his mum's cooking, and his wife did things differently. He then realize that when he asked those why questions, he was actually telling her not to do it that way.

From that example, I believe when we ask God the why question, we are not wanting the information. It won't make us feel any better if God had really told us why. Its more like we're not bold enough to tell God that we knew a better way to do things. Maybe the better question would be "What is going on?"

After all, we might have to look inward first before charging God with our uncaring tone. Self-examination is what I mean. If we really mean serious business with God, it pushes us to question our motives and to ponder what we really want. One mirror won't be enough to look at our whole image, we need to stand in between two mirrors, that is when we see the parts of ourselves that we don't like to view.

Instead of the mean, uncaring tone we sometimes charge God with, is it just possible that this may be the most tender and kind method of showing us who we really are so that we can become more of who God wants us to be?

Are we at that level of boldness??

Find Rest in God

2007-02-25T07:56:00.000-08:00

7 days of Chinese New Year had passed. I have to say what a busy and tiring week that was. Although it was school holidays, I don't think I had space to breathe. Weird but that was how it went.

Don't think I will be telling about the CNY week cause I don't know where to start and where to end. Basically it was a hectic week for me. After all that, things changed when I was in church today.

When I went church today after that crazy and tiring week, I felt the feeling of peace and warmness in me. I felt as if my 'spiritual being' was lying down on a bed, resting comfortably. It was then that I realized I was in the presence of God. He knows what I need after a tough week and He gave me without me asking Him. What a great God I believe in! God is just simply wonderful. He knows what is best for us and He provides in His correct timing.

Despite all the things in life, learn to take rest in God's embracing arms. He gives comfort like no other. God is Great!!

Under Siege...

2007-02-08T04:45:00.000-08:00

It has been a long time since I blogged. Sorry to those who visited my blog to find there is nothing new.

The past Sunday was Communion Sunday in my church. As usual, we had the 'bread' and grape juice and also reading from the Methodist Hymnal. There was nothing different I did during communion but there were a few words that kept me thinking non-stop till this very second.

' We acknowledge and bewail our manifold sins and wickedness, which we form time to time most grievously have committed, by thought, word, and deed, against thy divine majesty. We do earnestly repent, and are heartily sorry for these our misdoings; the remembrance of them is grievous unto us.'

These two sentences are not new to me for I've read them for years. I could even recite them without looking at the hymnal. These words finally struck me like the stone that struck Goliath.

Some of you might know that how dark my past was when I was in primary Chinese school and lower secondary. Well, the good thing is I have changed. But what happens when the past comes to present? I have never thought how to handle it because I never thought it would come back and haunt me ever again!

All these 'fiery arrows' are shooting at me and I'm finding it hard to resist them. I might have taken some of those shots lately but I am still able to pull them out. But no matter what the wounds are there! It is hard to nurse the wounds and resist the arrows at the same time! My castle is under great siege! (I put it this way because it is very hard to explain, just hope that you guys can understand from this.)

Have I not sincerely confess my past to the Lord? I dunno. So my friends, remember when you confess, make sure it's from the bottom of your heart, make sure you mean what you confess. If not, you'll end up in a dilemma like me......

Year 2006 at a glimpse

2006-12-31T04:35:00.000-08:00

Just a little update on what I have to say bout the year 2006...

January - June
1. Started the year with Jeremiah School - super COOL!!
2. Followed by MYF local retreat - good fellowship
3. Had no problem in deciding what to do after I got my SPM results - Form 6
4. The highest moment in my life - Myanmar Mission Trip - Amazing time!!!

July - November
1. 'Rain' fell on the wrong time..
2. 'Sun' came up on the wrong day..
3. 'Wind' blew only to cause disaster...
4. 'Earth' shook to bring things down...
(Not sharing here what I went through.. But I guess you can know how I felt...)

December
1. Youth Quake 2006 - exciting and wonderful!! (one person saved for the Lord)
2. Christmas preparation - tiring but fun at the same time...
3. All the Christmas programs - MYF Christmas Party, Caroling, Christmas Day. - everything was good!!

Well I guess now I can understand what it means by life's like a roller coaster. God started off my year by throwing me up high. Then, He brought me down, sinking like an anchor into the ocean deep. Lastly, He found me and lifted me up like a soaring eagle.

At certain times of the year I may have doubt God's power and His presence but in the end He made me realize that He is still in control. Forgive me Lord for all the things I've done that doesn't please You. Teach and correct me of my mistakes so that I may be presented before You as a holy sacrifice. Thank You Lord for all the wonderful time we share together. My paths are made straight because You were there by my side.

All praise and glory be to God...

Has Christmas just passed?

2006-12-26T06:16:00.000-08:00

For the past few years at least, I've been so busy when Christmas is around the corner. Caroling, MYF Christmas party, Christmas service, etc.. Will all these ever end one day? I'm not complaining about doing all these for the Lord, it's just that I realized I don't have time for Him on His birthday..

I don't think I ever did spend some serious moments with God on Christmas day. Christmas day is when He sent His son, Jesus to us. No one else could have given me such a wonderful gift. After all many people these days don't give presents out of love anymore. But He gave this miraculous gift to us out of love. That love didn't last only for a day. It lasted till today and it will be for eternity.

Such amazing love He has poured out for me and yet all I did on Christmas was play the guitar in the morning service? How can this be?? My friends can never show me so much love and care but I can spend a few hours with them to celebrate their birthday??

This just doesn't make sense to me at the moment. I can't say for definite that all I did during the Christmas season were for Him. Did I do all that to prove that I'm a capable person?? Am I proving that I can handle many things at the same time and doing it well?? Or am I really doing all that for Him?? I can't give you an answer. Or maybe I'm ashame of giving you the real answer. Sigh..

Lord.. Forgive me if my intentions were wrong. I deeply regret them..

A Life Reformed

2006-12-10T22:36:00.000-08:00

Once a spark, now a flame...
Once a still water, now a raging sea...
Once a breeze, now a storm...

That is exactly how I'm feeling right now. The only thing when talking to God now is thanking Him for a wonderful week that He has given me. God has turned me around not only 180 degrees, but He turned me again and again. Its like when you dip a marshmellow into the chocolate dip and you turn it again and again. Wonderful!!
All the deepest desire in my heart He has fulfilled in just 4 days. I saw His mighty hand reaching down to me when I couldn't even feel His slightest touch. He used me as an instrument to bring someone to Him. That guy was the first person I've brought to Christ and that was my deepest desire in my heart. Many more wonderful things that happened that I dunno how to write it down.
I really desire that God will continue to use me to extend His kingdom. All glory and thanks to the Lord!!! :)

A Suprise in KL

2006-11-29T05:35:00.000-08:00

As I'm typing..My legs feel like they're breaking. This is due to too much of walking. Not because I join a walkathon or what, but because I went jalan-jalan in mid valley for about 9 hours!! Its super crazy. Not much choice as I'm following my parents.
This entry is not to tell you guys bout what I bought of did in mid valley. Its about someone I met in Sunway Pyramid yesterday..
As i was walking with my sis looking for Christmas presents, we stopped by a stall near the escalator. The woman at the stall began to talk to us saying this thing is how much that is how much. As she was talking, the slang of her english was very familiar. It sounded so much like a Myanmeese speaking english. For those who dunno, I went Myanmar before. So, I asked my sis to ask her where's she from cause I was eager to find out. She said she was from Myanmar. Hah!! Like I expected. Without any delay, i greeted her 'minggalabar'(greetings in Burmeese). She was so happy and she replied 'chezu tempade'(thank you in Burmeese). I think she never expected someone to greet her in her mother tongue. She just kept smiling as my sis was paying. After that we continue jalan-jalan.
Honestly I was excited when I found out she's a Myanmeese. It's like meeting a family member. I myself din expect to meet a Myanmeese and talk to one in Malaysia. All the memories when my time in Myanmar just flashes back. I really miss that place very much. I told myself earlier that one day I will definitely return to the country I loved so much. And I know that one day will come.
Well I gotta take my shower now then off to bed. Its a long and tiring day for me. Adieu!!!

Flow of Life

2006-11-20T08:14:00.000-08:00

It has been a long long time since i updated. Sorry to those who visited my blog many times but always seeing the same old posting. Thousand apologies!!
Times have changed where things just flow swiftly like the river. Rocks and stones have emerged to give a little twist and turn to the flow. No one or anything should be blamed for this is just part of life.
Although things might have changed but I am still glad that God is in control. He is like the water in the river. Smoothing all rocks and stones in our path. Through every rock and stone we bumped into, He wants us to know that He was there before us. By His grace and mercy, we are able to reach the end where everything is according to His perfect plan. Just like a river that ends with a beautiful waterfall. If we follow Him, He will lead us right to the finish line.
Remember that sufferings in life should not make us change our course but instead we should overcome them with the flow of God. Include God in your flow of life and He will make it perfect.

Coffee!!!

2006-08-23T22:48:00.000-07:00

This entry won't be like the usaul ones you read. I'm here to express my feelings towards this great creation of God - COFFEE!!
All this while I've been a huge fan of coffee. Spending lots of my money just to get a nice cup of coffee. Coffee beans of any type drives me crazy. Beans from all around the world I've tasted. From its origin Brazil till my country Malaysia. I think coffee is one of the addictions that is legal. Thank the world for not making it illegal. lol...
My whole family loves coffee. My sis who doesn't like coffee when she was small now likes it too, of course it takes some brain washing from me. Oh ya, even my dog takes a lick or two during the weekends. As I'm blogging now, I have a cup of coffee on my table.
My dad who drinks 3 cups of coffee a day went for a check up one day and discovered that something about his bone isn't too good, mainly because of excess coffee. Therefore, now he has to cut down to one cup a day and take calcium tablets. Because of that, my mum who freaks out easily is forcing me to take calcium tablets too although i don't drink 3 cups of coffee a day. Me a 18 year old guy, taking calcium tablets?? This is madness!! Not only that, my mum insist that I drink at least one glass of milk everyday. At least I'm not drinking Anlene hi-calcium milk like my grandparents. All these makes me feel like I'm an old man. Sigh...
Well, all you coffee lovers out there, start drinking more coffee while you're still young. Cause once you get old, your kids will make you drink hi-calcium and cut down your cups of coffee per day. For those who are not crazy about coffee, u should drink it more often till you love em. For what I know, coffee is just simply marvelous and don't worry that you're over consuming it because coffee beans are not at the verge of extinction yet. lol...
Enjoy a cup/mug/bowl/saucer (depends how you drink it) of coffee today!!!

All you need is Love???

2006-08-10T02:11:00.000-07:00

Its been some time since i posted something new. Busy form 6 life, what to do. haih...
Lookin at my title, if you think that I'm gonna share my love life experiences, dream on. That's bit too personal to blog about. lol..
Being in love or a relationship has always been nice. But the process of getting in it is tough. Looking at one of my friend recently, i just feel pity for him. Trying so hard to get a partner but its so near yet so far. Loosing out to his friend when they were fighting over the same girl has made him lose his mind. Now he's trying out a new target and fail, yet again. Well what can I say.. If its not the time then you're in for nothing.
Looking at all these things around me has made me feel very thankful. First of all, I'm not in a process of getting a partner or getting out of a relationship, so basically I'm free from all these potential problems at the moment. phew...
The best part is I have already found the real love that I'm looking for. Don't get me wrong. I don't mean that I already have a life partner and is now married. Way too early for that. This love I'm talking about is from my heavenly Father. Never have I experienced such love before in my life. Knowing that He has died on the cross to rescue me from the punishment of death is just so great. He loved me so much till the extend that I mean everything to Him. What more can I do for my God that loves me so dearly then to offer my entire life to Him. There is a verse from a song that just expresses my feelings. Let me share it with you.

Dekat padaMu, itu rinduku
Setiap kataku, Kau pun menunggu
Tak ku sangka, ku temukan, satu kasih yang abadi
Kini ku datang, dan ku bawa hidupku...

Very meaningful isn't it? Well if any of you would want to know more about this love that I've experienced, post a comment and let me know. I would be very glad to share it with you.
Oh well, i gotta go now. Take care muah friends!!!

We mean everything to Him??

2006-07-20T09:40:00.000-07:00

Hey!!Just decided to blog about something. Not because I want to avoid from people spamming me, but I really got something to blog about.
Well, many people say that God is their everything and stuff like that. I'm not saying that it's not true in fact it is very true but i just wonder how many people realize that we are also everything to God. It's something that goes both ways. If we're not everything to Him, He won't care less about our existance here on earth. He won't be pourin His love for us stuff like that. If He doesn't care, we'll just be rubbish that He created. And that's not true! We are everything to Him and that is why He always wants to have a relationship with us human beings. He is always there waiting for us to come to Him. In many occasions we say that God has forsaken us and stuff like that but I believe it's not true. It is actually us that have drawn away form God. So remember friends, God is always there for us and we mean a lot to Him. YAY!!!
That's all i'll be blogging this time. Just another thought in my mind that is written down. Adios!!

Just another bad day.....

2006-07-13T00:30:00.000-07:00

Things weren't going right from the time I woke up till this moment as I'm blogging. On my way to school, I was listening to news on the radio. Main topic is about the bombing in Mumbai. India is one of my favourite country because I have many nice Indian freinds and I just love their food.Haha.. This incident is going to create even more problems among races and religions.Sigh.. Then the conflict between North Korea and some countries. Israel soldiers being captured by the Lebonese as hostages. Fooh..Press is just so depressing nowadays. I really pray and hope that wars won't be happening. It may seem quite impossible after reading and hearing all these news. Just pray that the sovereign One will take control of this matter.
Well, that's not all the bad things for the day. In school we had a spot-checked. The bad thing that happen to me is, one 'GREAT' teacher snap my sideburn off!!!! And he only cut one side. He's such an evil person!!! The length of my sideburn was at the correct length but his hand is just so gatal. I was very pissed after that. I was so angry because I'm very particular about my hair and some more my hair is at the permitted length. The worse part is, he's my church member. I don't know what's wrong with that guy. He just likes to pick on the people he knows in school. Just feel like calling him BABOON right at his face. I know hating someone is wrong but I'm just having a hard time forgiving him. I pray that God will give me the heart to forgive even right now because hating someone is not a right thing and it's also tiring.
Another thing that happen in school is. I thought I lost my wallet. But actually, I forgot to bring to school so it's safe and sound at home. But not counting the fact that I may get fine RM100 if i lost my MYkad. It's a great relieve after coming home and find my wallet sitting on my table.
I gotta go now. Just needed to blog to lepas my geram.
Ciao!!

5 or more??

2006-07-02T00:51:00.000-07:00

Looking at the title, which is so general, can bring any meaning. Bathe 5 times a day like Lawrence Chin? Watch 5 hours of tv? Chatting on the phone for 5 hours non stop? Having to be called more than 5 times before getting out of bed? Well, what i really meant by 5 or more is the number of times we pray a day.....
We live in Malaysia where our Muslim friends pray 5 times a day. Although it is a must in their religion to pray 5 times a day, I believe 99% of them do it faithfully everyday without much complain, even during this World Cup fever. This is something we can learn from them as Christians. Bowing down on a piece of mat to pray. Maybe we can minus the mat but I really think bowing down to pray is something very meaningful. I'm not sure why the Muslims bow down when they pray but I believe its an action showing that we put down everything else, surrendering all we have to pray. We may say that all these are in our hearts when we pray but God must be more pleased when we put into action. I realized that when someone on the pulpit says 'lets bow our heads and pray', not everyone will do so.
Speaking about praying 5 times a day, I think its something we should really put effort in. Our Muslim friends get up 5 in the morning to pray for the 1st time of the day. I wonder how many Christians do that. I heard a church in Korea wakes up at 4 in the morning to attend prayer meeting in their church. I really admire such people. The passion to pray is so strong. This is something done with full of commitment too.
I myself am trying to be more active in my prayer life. Not only to pray for myself but also for my church, MYF, people around me, etc... In school, I would pray whenever the muslims are praying. For example, when the uztaz prays before the assembly starts, when certain teachers ask the muslim students to pray before he or she starts to teach, when the 'azan' at 1 something p.m is heard (there's a mosque near my school), and every morning before the school makes the morning announcements. Its not as easy as it sounds but I really encourage those who experience this in school to pray at those particular times.
Well, this is all I wanna share with all my blog readers. Hope it really means something to you all because it really means a lot to me. God blezz!!

Personalities

2006-06-21T02:11:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!! sorry for not updating my blog for some time. Was very busy this few weeks. And I would have to say form6 surely contributed to the busy life I'm having now.
Well, I've read many articles about people saying they have spilt or dual personalities. I didn't really believe at 1st but now I'm beginning to see it in my own life. I use to have two personalities but not in a good way. I was either good or evil. Last time, I will show my good attitude in church, MYF, or even in sunday school. Then, when I get to places without the supervision from my parents, I would be like a living devil. I was very good at this 'acting' that only a few people know the real devil in me. That was last time for your info but now this spilt personality has changed its concept.
Now, I find that I have to changed my personality when I'm with different group of friends. Mixing with my school friends(only guys cause I'm from a single sex school), I'll have to behave in a particular way. As in the jokes we crack (I don't mean bad or dirty jokes), the topics we talk about and stuff like that. Then when I mix with friends from other schools (gals n guys this time), it's a different 'frequency'. When I hang out with my friends from MYF it'll be another. But the one I'm most comfortable with will be with my MYFers. They're a bunch of people I grow up with. But as time goes by, I begin to feel comfortable in every different situation. It may sound good to many of you but I'm seriously confused about my actual self now. I tried testing by swicthing my 'frequency' around and guess what, it's terrible. It's just no go.
Now I'm wondering, why can't i just have one personality and fit in to anywhere. But at least I know which group of friends I'm most comfortable with. The best time will be in JS. I only need to be myself and it fits well. I really miss the 1st 6 months of my life in the year 2006. I really miss the time of my life when I get to serve God so actively. After settling down in school life, there are just so many distractions. So busy with life. Sigh.....
I would like to end by dedicating this poetry or whatever you call it to all my blog readers.

Flowers bloom and blossom in the spring
Birds chirp and bears roar when the 1st sun shine is seen
But I'm here penning down my blue grey feelings
What troubles me is something beyond words
All is said but nothing is done
No one can help except the true God above

Sad happy sad happy face I show
Hiding my feelings from the people I know
Just so sick and tired of all these things
But God assured me with the one true promise
That He remembers me day and night,
And loves me with all His heart.

Hope you my friends will like it.God bless!!!

Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven!

2006-06-06T22:49:00.000-07:00

Hi people! I'm back in Malaysia soil after 10 days. This trip I went was indeed a great blessing to me and my whole team. The last 10 days of my life will always be in my memory, forever. I saw God did wonders, one after the other. I felt like I'm the luckiest person on earth after this trip. God has been so so so real to me. I have never seen God at work so mightly in my life, but now i have. I am filled with joy.
God has also place a burden in me for this nation. This burden in me just helps me to keep on rely on God, which is something good. The people there touched my heart in a way that I have not felt before. They are just so eager to be prayed for. The other thing is their perseverence to pray for their own country. Their love and affection for their own nation deserves all my respect. This is something I have never seen in my own country.
The friends I have made will always remain close to my heart. I am looking forward to meet them again. It is going to be a difficult task but I believe if I pray to God with faith, it will happen. 1 person's air ticket will cost about RM1000 plus, so if anyone of you would love to help me, just let me know. I'll be very thankful and I'm sure that God will be pleased too. The time we shared there were just so meaningful and so memorable.
I don't have much time to blog about this trip. It just makes me feel sad that I can't stay there longer. But I have a strong feeling that I'll be going there again. So i just want to thank all of you who have prayed for me. I also pray that God's will for that nation will be done through me and the rest of the team.
All praise and glory be to God!!!

Myanmar here i come!!

2006-05-25T01:44:00.000-07:00

You have kept me waiting. You are going to be an excitment to me. You are packed with suprises, waiting for me. You must have many other things up your sleeves. Myanmar is what I'm talking about. I really don't know what to expect. I'll be doing my best and play my part in this missions trip. Play my role as a team member. So friends, uphold me in your prayers. Pray for the whole team as well.

Don't have much time to blog this time. Still got to do some last minute packing. I'll update after I return from Myanmar. Adios amigo(s)!!!

The Days has come back!!

2006-05-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

3 days of school has just gone by. The only nice thing about it is I just went the 1st and the 3rd day.haha.. That is because the 2nd day was teacher's day so we lower 6 people have no place to hang out. For the 2 days i went, school is nothing but boring. It is not because of lessons, it's because we had nothing to do. The 1st day, after registering, we just sat in the hall and did nothing. I went out the hall to get some fresh air because it's like a micro-wave in there. Just hang aorund outside the hall with my friends and sembang. It's kinda boring though. Wasted so much of our time. Then, the worse part came. Just because I was formerly from this school (Sultan Abdul Hamid College), the school counselor asked all the former students to sing the school's anthem on the stage in front of everybody. It's not because I don't like the song or what, it's just that not everybody can sing in the same tune so just imagine la, it's horrfying. Some of my friends so semangat want to sing that eventually they shouted and it went out of tune. So memalukan. After that, we're asked to teach the other students from other schools. We're asked to go in groups of 3 to teach a partiular school our school anthem. Then he asked the girls to sing followed by the boys. Just felt so lame. He's just finding reasons to waste our time. What a boring 1st day in school.

Well the 3rd wasn't much different. We waited at the school canteen in the morning. Then we were seperated, science stream and arts stream, according to what we had registered. Standing in the sepak takraw court were the science students. We had to hear some 'wonderful' lectures by our penyelia tingkatan. *(Uncle Yeang Boon, if you're reading this section just ignore what i say k?haha..) Basically we stood there about 1 hour before we can go to our classes. And guess what, 65 people to a class. It's so freaking packed. Not enough tables and chairs also. After that we again had nothing to do. So the rest of the day we're 'stucked' in our classes. Teachers were suppose to enter but you know la, sometimes teachers are just lazy. My school is well known for that. Another thing is this lower 6 badge don't have any nice gals to look at. *sigh* But good also la, I get to concentrate. =P

7 more days and holidays starts. That's the fun part. We only go to school for about 10 days. But this time my holidays wil be different. I'll be going for a mission trip in Myanmar. Yay!!! I've been looking forward for this a very long time. And at last I'm 'old' enough and because of that my parents allow me to go. But most important of all, I think that's what God wants me to do in this holiday. I know this trip will be a very meaningful experience for me. The preparation for this trip is not easy for me, not physically but mentally and spiritually as well. All I can do is to pray and ask you my friends to pray for me. Romans 15 : 30 - "I urge you, brothers, by our Lord Jesus Christ and by the love of the Spirit, to join me in my struggle by praying to God for me." The apostle Paul said this as he prepares his visit to Rome. Although my struggles might not be the same as his, just pray for me as i prepare myself to go to Myanmar to do God's work.

That's all I can blog for now. I got to finish my tuition homework and the tuition is tonight. Last minute person.haha.. Ciao guys!!

Love this verse!!

2006-05-10T23:55:00.000-07:00

You're my Friend
And You are my Brother
Even though You are my King
I want You more than any other
So much more than anything

Thanks Martin J. Nystrom for writing this song especially this verse!!

Life - Form 6 is startin!!

2006-05-10T02:00:00.000-07:00

Hmmm... Wake up at 6, reach home at 2.30... That's the kind of life I'll be going through 4 days later. Tuition has begun and homework beginning to pile up. This will be the kind of life I'll be going through the next 18 months. Since deciding to take form6, I haven't hear a person that says it's easy or okay.. It's either tough or very tough. Till now I'm not sure whether form6 is the right choice for me but I guess I don have other alternatives. My results don't qualify me for JPA and my parents can't afford to send me to private colleges. So, I'll be seeing you Alor Starians for the next 2 years. Haha... I don't that will be good news for you guys or what but I'm pretty happy in Alor Star. Although it's still quite 'ulu', but I just like the simple life here. Food is cheap, travellin is quite convenient because we don't have traffic jams (kesian you KL people) , basically life is quite simple here, at least from the outside la. Where in M'sia can u get 'char koay teow' for only RM2. Haha..

How wonderful it'll be if all our lives are this simple and easy going. There are more then just all these in life. There are responsibilities for each and everyone of us, a purpose. We must be aware of this. Open our eyes and hearts to what He has in store for us. For me, I'm still not very sure what He has in store for me. I hope and pray that one day, soon, I'll know it. Speaking about responsibilities, sorry Lydia for loosing your bag. My apologies. I think we must learn to be responsible as we grow then only we can be at our best when doing His purpose for us. Responsibilities, remember that my friends.

I just don't know what am I crapping out but I hope that it'll strike that small part in your heart. I myself have to also remember my responsibilities, my purpose here. So i hope and pray that all of us will support each other in this area.

I gotta go now people. Gotta get ready for tuition. Haizz... Take care amigo(s)... God bless!!

True buddies

2006-05-05T00:32:00.000-07:00

I had a small reunion with my primary school friends yesterday. I didn't expect it to be this small which is only 3 people including me, but we had a great time. yay! By the way, I fetched the other 2 of my friends, which means our reunion started even inside the car. haha.. The best part in the car is when 1 of my friend ask what language she should use when talkin to me. She tought I forgot how to speak mandarin. But quite true also, began to develop some 'english' slang when I speak in mandarin. Then when I spoke in mandarin, both of them also laugh cause of the slang. We went Secret Recipe to eat some nice cakes. After all Alor Star don have nice place to hang out, especially in the afternoon. We were there about 1 and a half hours, chattin non-stop. Talkin about all the past times we had together. Remembering all the gila moments especially during our standard6 class trip. It was fun!

It was quite a surprise that we still can click so well even though we didn't have much contact the past few years. After all I left chinese school and ever since then I almost lost conact with all my primary school friends. I really teasure the times we had together. And it made me realize that true friendship should last forever. Although this statement may sound like a fairy tale but I think it's true. There are many incidents in my life that made me realize how important freinds are. Although friends may let us down at times but it's always nice to have them around. Remember that God is also our friend. I really appreciate this friend I have who has never let me down.

So friends, appreciate the friends you have now before you leave this world. Support each other along our journey and together we walk closer to Him.

Hi Everybody!!!

2006-05-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone. I'm still new in this blogging world so just give me some time to get things done. And currently I'm a bit on the busy side so just hang on there and I'll post something in the near future. That's all folks!!